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20 September 2008 @ 08:20 pm

Title: The most precious gift 
Author: blackpoetcat
Characters: Brian Kinney / Michael Novotny (implied)
Rating: NC-15 for typical Qaf-language
Disclaimer: It's all Showtime's/Cowlips, no profit intended

Summary: Some thoughts about a special relationship

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The most precious gift



You think I don’t love you, do you?
That I’m a selfish, arrogant prick who enjoys being loved and worshipped by you without giving anything back, hu?

No, not anymore.

Of course you thought so for numerous times. Barked at me, gave me shit and told me a million times how badly I mistreated and kicked away you and your fucking love.

But deep inside you know – and always knew.

The love I have for you is unique and special. A one-kind-thing I never shared or will share with anyone else. Because I would never fuck you, let alone let you suck or fuck me. I would steal, lie and kill if any of this would ever be necessary to save you.
And yes, I would die for you, too.

Not that I’d really appreciate to, but I would.
Because you are the one I cherish deeper in my heart than anyone else.

You aren’t the only friend I never fucked with. But the only one I would – if you wouldn’t be who you are.

My best friend.

The one person I like, love - and never fucked because of him, not of myself.

I know that you longed for me all those years and you will never know how many times I was tempted to really take you right away. But I always knew that fucking you would destroy everything we have and share. That it would kill the boy you still are deep inside your soul and need to be.

I don’t want you to change.
Because I love you just the way you are. As do your family and all our friends.

That’s why I refuse to let your deepest wish come true.

And that’s why you are the only gay man in Pittsburgh for whom it is the most precious gift NOT to be fucked by me.


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Current Music: Soundtrack "Queer as folk"
 
 
blackpoetcat
19 October 2007 @ 02:52 pm
Title: Growing shapes (1-4)
Author: blackpoetcat
Pairing: Norribeth
Characters: James Norrington, Elizabeth Swann
Rating: none
Disclaimer: It's all Disney's, no profit intended, just my little world of fantasy...

Summary: Takes place after CotBP, ignoring DMC + AWE;
What if relationships go another way than expected?
 
My personal thanks goes to dear underworldvixen for betaing :-).


Growing shapes
 
 
Part 4 – The garden
 
 
The first changes I noticed were her rosy cheeks and her slightly tanned complexion. Apparently she spent quite a lot of time outside, not caring about the foolish standards which dictated proper British ladies to appear with milk white skin, even in the Caribbean. Her fresh and healthy appearance suited her as much as her smile when I called on her four days later.
 
“You’re looking adorable, Elizabeth.”
 
Her smile grew wider and she offered me a seat beside her on the garden bench.
 
“Thank you, James. How is your shoulder?”
 
Only an instinct prevented me from shrugging. With a smirk I moved the mentioned part in a slow circle.
 
“Nothing serious, it will be fine in less than a week.”
 
She nodded and touched my arm.
 
“I’m glad to hear that. It would cause me great pain if he... If you…”
 
I took her hand and gently squeezed it.
 
“Don’t think about anymore, Elizabeth. It is over.”
 
Again, she nodded. We stood silent for a short while, each of us lost in thought, but well aware of the closeness we reached during these last weeks; as we were of the bitter end of her engagement…
 
“Father told me Will left Port Royal last night, aboard the Prudence.”
 
“Yes. She’s destined to the Northern colonies. He’s an excellent blacksmith, I’m sure he will achieve a good life there.”
 
“I hope so, regardless of his… Behaviour.”
 
Again, I squeezed her hand and started to stroke it tenderly.
 
“Of course you do, Elizabeth. So do I. He’s not a bad guy, just a rash-tempered, very emotional young man who lacks experience and has to learn some discipline.”
 
She smiled at me and suddenly I felt her fingers entangling with mine. A lump was building inside my throat, I couldn’t leave her eyes. My heart throbbed like it would jump out of my chest the very next moment. She was so close, so…
 
“James…?”
 
It was a whisper, including a hint of tentativeness. Her lips trembled; the tip of her tongue peeked out, licking them, while her eyes were still focused on me. I couldn’t help, couldn’t suppress my desire anymore. Slowly I closed the gap between us and kissed her; gently, with all my fondness, waiting for her reaction. And then her lips opened, pressed further against mine, inviting me to explore the sweetness of her mouth as passionate as I longed to do for such a long time...
 
Breathlessly, we separated after what seemed an eternity to recover some air. Her swollen, wet lips formed a surprised ‘Oh’; her gaze was a bit foggy. I was all smiles, never felt happier in my life and knew at once that this was my second chance; the ultimate chance to declare my true feelings…
 
Without releasing her hand, I knelt down in front of the bench.
 
ElizabethYou are my horizon. The only reason I ever wanted to marry you is because I love you with all my heart. And that was why I accepted your first choice. Nothing is more important to me than your happiness, your freedom to choose.”
 
She gasped and clutched to my hands like they were anchors. The anchors she always had; will always have to secure her ship of life…
 
“James… I…”
 
“No, please, Elizabeth. Let me finish. I love you and would be the happiest man on earth if you would consider marrying me. But as I said – it is your choice, your decision. If you still want me to just be your true friend, I will. I would never want you to become my wife if you don’t love me. That would destroy you, and I don’t want you to end up hating me for making your life a misery…”
 
I swallowed hard and tried not to tremble, because I never felt such fear, not even when I proposed to her the first time. And with the instinct of a battle-experienced soldier I knew that she had already sensed my anxiety…
 
A single tear was running down her cheek when she smiled in a way I never saw; enchanting, touched by a passion hidden deep inside.
 
“Less than two months ago, I would have denied that we have more in common than friendship and our social class. But I learned to know you. And I found a soul so much alike I never hoped to achieve. Your way to deal with me made me love you, James.”
 
I felt my eyes widen, my blood rushed to my heart and I prompt forgot how to speak properly.
 
Elizabeth… Darling… You… Really…”
 
I wasn’t able to complete the sentence, but she already nodded and pulled at my hands to invite me back to her side.
 
“Yes, I love you. And I promise to marry you if you’ll kiss me again; now!”
 
If I ever received an order, it was her demand to plunder her sweet mouth once more. Well, who was I to object? To kiss the woman I loved, my future wife, was the most wonderful order I ever had to follow…
 
 
 
The end
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
blackpoetcat
15 October 2007 @ 02:34 pm
Title: Growing shapes (1-4)
Author: blackpoetcat
Pairing: Norribeth / Willabeth
Characters: James Norrington, Elizabeth Swann, Will Turner
Rating: none
Disclaimer: It's all Disney's, no profit intended, just my little world of fantasy...

Summary: Takes place after CotBP, ignoring DMC + AWE;
What if relationships go another way than expected?
 
My personal thanks goes to dear underworldvixen for betaing :-).


Growing shapes
 
 
Part 3 - The parapet
 
 
When I saw her two weeks prior to the wedding, she was standing at the very same place I proposed to her. She seemed so lost in thought, so fragile, I hesitated to approach. But before I could withdraw, she sensed my presence and turned to me. Her eyes were shimmering wet. She wept; again.
Nevertheless, her tentative smile was an invitation, so I went to her side and offered my arm. She took it, lent into me, revealing her desperate need of support. Neither of us spoke for minutes, we just observed the horizon without noticing anything but the infinity of a calm sea and a clear sky.
Finally, it was her who started to speak.
 
“What is it you see there, James?”
 
Astonished, because she never asked me such personal thing before, I turned to her.
 
“Do you really want to know?”
 
“Yes. Tell me. Please.”
 
My gaze went back to the blue and green line where the sky seemed to touch the water. Never since I joined the Navy, never in my whole life, I told anyone about my deepest feelings for the sea…
Well, maybe today was the right time to start.
 
I cleared my throat and felt a wistful smile growing on my lips.
 
“I’m a passionate sailor, Elizabeth. The horizon is my little piece of freedom; the only one I can achieve during my life of service and responsibility as a loyal officer of His Majesty’s Navy.”
 
Her gasp nearly startled me; I turned and caught her eyes. They were wide and gave away a great amount of surprise.
 
“You’re longing for freedom? You, of all people?”
 
I cocked an eyebrow. Perhaps it was still a mistake to share this deepest of all my dreams with her?!
 
“Why do you ask, Elizabeth? Is it so unbelievable?”
 
It wasn’t as easy as usual to hide my pain and show her the calm façade of former times. My heart didn’t heal since the rejection, far from it! Every hour, every minute I was near Elizabeth, it cried for her in agony. But I would rather die than adding this weight to her sadness…
 
“No, no… That’s not what I… Why….” she stammered, blushing. “It’s just… I never thought that…”
 
She stopped and bit her lip. It was obvious that she was more than nervous, that she hesitated to tell me why she was so surprised that even a stiff commodore like me could dream of some freedom. Or… Did I misjudge her intentions?
My eyebrows climbed up when I recognized the hint of suppressed laughter in her eyes, her trembling lips and shoulders. Now it was me who gasped in astonishment and growing annoyance. For the first time since the rejection, I felt angry with her. How the hell could she...?!
 
“Elizabeth, there’s nothing funny in…”
 
“Oh please, stop it, James! It’s not you or your dream I’m laughing about” she giggled and petted my arm. “Sorry…”
 
She wiped her eyes to remove some tears of laughter and drew a deep breath to calm down. When she finally looked at me, I saw her eyes sparkling the familiar way I missed for months. I couldn’t help but relax and feel a deep satisfaction that it was me who made her feel happy and smiled involuntary.
 
She returned the smile and her fingers touched my cheek, tenderly, just for a second. It felt like the smooth hint of a butterfly’s wing. My gaze couldn’t leave her eyes; I still sensed the soft pressure against my skin when she continued.
 
“James, what I was laughing about is… Well, the two most precious and inimitable men I know are also the two most different. Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined that you and Jack would share the same dream with me, the same perspective of the horizon…”
 
I stared at her, dumbfounded. Jack? Did she really just say that Sparrow and I had something in common?! That we are – equal? That was, in sharing the very same thought of freedom…
Impossible! How could she dare to compare me with that…? That scallywag?! I opened my mouth to protest but shut it promptly when I saw her twitching lips forming a single word. Pirate…
 
I knew I should have been shocked. But I couldn’t help and felt a smirk growing, slowly, until I started to chuckle. Only seconds later, we both laughed out loud. We laughed so hard we nearly cried, clutching to each other, unable to stop until…
 
“Norrington! Release her at once; or I swear I’ll kill you!”
 
In an instant, we sobered completely. There was no way to ignore the dangerous tone of Turner’s voice. He was in a lather of anger, quite worse than during our last encounters, his hand clutching to the hilt of his sword. Although I fixed his narrowed eyes I caught Elizabeth’s expression from the corner of my eye. She trembled in fear…
My heart squinted and my decision, the one I never wanted to make because of her right to choose her path alone, was clear. I never would allow this man to control her life; never as long as I live!
 
I stepped forward Turner, shoving her behind me and straightened.
 
“No. The very moment I will release Elizabeth is the moment she asks me to do. No one else has the right to decide whether she spends her time with me or not. No one, Turner! Not you, not the Governor – only Elizabeth herself! Calm down and finally start to understand that she is a self-contained person who has rights that need to be respected. If you feel unable to do so I suggest you leave her alone. Do I make myself clear?”
 
Turner snorted with disgust. He bared his teeth, raised his chin and addressed Elizabeth but didn’t break eye contact with me.
 
“Come here, Elizabeth. Your place is beside me, you have nothing in common with this arrogant Navy bastard. Leave him be, once and for all!”
 
I didn’t move or speak, only clenched my jaw. If he would dare to force her I won’t be able to restrain myself from teaching this unconvincible fool his well-earned lesson…
 
Her fingers nearly dug into my shoulder and I sensed that she desperately shook her head.
 
“No, Will. I don’t want to come with you. Go. And stop to insult and threaten James, it isn’t his fault you’ve lost me. It’s no one’s than your own!”
 
My surprise was mirrored in Turner’s face; he gasped in cold rage, but my heart jumped in joy. She didn’t want him anymore; freed herself from the cage he tried to build around her. Finally, her spirit had won the battle against her fear of another scandal, had showed her what kind of character she really was.
 
A pirate; a pirate and a fine woman…
 
 
 
tbc…
 
 
blackpoetcat
12 October 2007 @ 10:42 pm
Title: Growing shapes (1-4)
Author: blackpoetcat
Pairing: Norribeth mentioned / Willabeth
Characters: James Norrington, Will Turner
Rating: none
Disclaimer: It's all Disney's, no profit intended, just my little world of fantasy...

Summary: Takes place after CotBP, ignoring DMC + AWE;
What if relationships go another way than expected?
 
My personal thanks go to dear underworldvixen for betaing :-).



Growing shapes
 
 
Part 2 – The smithy
 
 
If views could kill I would drop dead to the floor the very moment I entered the smithy. Turner’s eyes shot daggers right through me. His icy voice cut my nerves like one of his swords would my heart. If he could only murder me without consequences…
 
“Commodore…”
 
“Mr. Turner… I would like a word with you.”
 
No, I didn’t like. But I promised. Promised to try everything to change his behaviour. As if he’d ever care about my opinion, let alone follow my advice whenever Elizabeth was the subject…
Of course I was right.
 
“No. There’s nothing we have to discuss”, he declared and crossed his arms. “Unless you want to order something …”
 
I suppressed an annoyed sigh and folded my hands behind my back.
 
“Mr. Turner… The only thing I would like to order at the moment is a cage. A large cage, which offers enough room for a swan to live and swim, but prevents any attempt to fly.”
 
His face fell, he clenched his fists and stepped ahead, stopped just an arm’s length in front of me.
 
“Don’t you dare to tell me how to handle my fiancée, Norrington!”, he hissed. “You don’t have any right to and I demand that you’ll stay away of her in the future. There’s no place in our life for people like you.”
 
I was tempted to hit him straight in the face. I couldn’t remember when I last had such violent wish. Nevertheless, I stood as stiff and unemotional as usual. More than fifteen years of service in His Majesty’s Navy taught me enough discipline to behave the opposite way I felt.
Well, at least until today…
 
“People like me, Mr. Turner? What do you mean exactly? People who care about her well-being? People who supported her when she tried her limits or needed someone to talk with? People who lent her a shoulder to cry on whenever someone hurt or disappointed her?”
 
I didn’t recognize my own voice. Was that really me who used this passionate and rude tone? Me, who should be stoic and calm in any circumstances? The moment I discovered that I’d lost my temper and went too far was exactly the one Turner’s fist stroke the very same cheekbone as he did the day before. My head snapped aside, I tumbled back, touched the bruise and wasn’t surprised to feel blood. Abruptly I became as cold as during battles, straightened and set my jaw.
 
“This was the second time you attacked me physically where I just used words, Turner. Don’t try my patience. If you do that ever again I will bring you to trial!”
 
He laughed, hard and with obvious disgust.
 
“You won’t, Norrington. You’re far too arrogant to let anyone damage your reputation like this. Not to mention that you’d never expose Elizabeth to any scandal. You know as well as I do that she would have to bear the worst of all gossip if her fiancé would have to face a trial.”
 
His smirk showed a deep satisfaction while he crossed his arms again.
 
“Your plans have well and truly failed, Norrington. Elizabeth will never marry a man who doesn’t love her the way she needs. I suggest you leave and finally bury your ambitions to become the Governor’s son-in-law.”
 
I cocked my eyebrow. Now that was the last thing I would accept – that this ever too rash firebrand dared to judge my intentions! Particularly when he didn’t know them at all…
 
“My plans aren’t your business, Turner. And don’t pretend to know me or my ambitions, least of all my feelings! But I’m glad to hear that we at last agree upon one thing: That Elizabeth will never marry someone who doesn’t love her the way she needs.”
 
He laughed, again.
 
“You don’t know what she really needs, Norrington: Protection, first and most from her stubbornness and her rashness.”
 
My short smile didn’t reach my eyes.
 
“I see. And you think you are the right person to deal with other people’s rashness? That would be like asking Sparrow to guard a rum storage. But as you so persistently said, that isn’t my business.”
 
I went to the door, but turned a last time before I left.
 
“Go on, treat her the same way you did if you’re certain it is the right one. But you will not bar her from talking with me and I will not stay away from her. Fiancé or not, I am still her friend and I don’t care if you like it. Good day, Mr. Turner.”
 
Never in my adult life had I ever slammed a door. Today it was a most welcome pleasure…
 
 
tbc…
 
 
blackpoetcat
10 October 2007 @ 01:52 pm
Title: Growing shapes (1-4)
Author: blackpoetcat
Pairing: Norribeth / Willabeth mentioned
Characters: James Norrington, Elizabeth Swann
Rating: none
Disclaimer: It's all Disney's, no profit intended, just my little world of fantasy...

Summary: Takes place after CotBP, ignoring DMC + AWE. What if relationships go another way than expected?

My personal thanks goes to dear underworldvixen for betaing :-).

 

Growing shapes
 
 
Part 1 – The cave
 
 
I found her in the smuggler’s cave, just as expected. Sitting on the same rock as usual, embracing her knees, her gaze lost to the visible part of horizon. She didn’t move when I approached; didn’t look at me when she spoke.
 
“James…”
 
Nothing more, no eye contact, not the smallest sign that she even bothered with the thought I could be someone else. I sat down next to her, only inches away.
 
Elizabeth…”
 
It seemed like ages when she finally spoke.
 
“Who asked you to look for me? My father or…”
 
I had to clear my throat over her voice, the tremble inside. It sounded so strange to the fierce girl, the strong woman I used to know for so many years.
 
“They both came to my office because you couldn’t be found anywhere. They are very concerned.”
 
She nodded, but obviously without regret.
 
“I would be lying to say that I’m sorry. Though I am, in a way…”
 
“I see…”
 
She continued staring at the sea, following the waves and gulls only with her mind. I didn’t dare to disturb her. I sensed that she was confused and something down weighted her a great deal.
 
After a while she asked:
 
“Did he want to accompany you? Or to learn this place?”
 
Not that I was caught by surprise, deep in my mind I’d been waiting for this question. But I nevertheless hoped to avoid it… How on earth could I explain to her that...
 
Elizabeth… It is not my place to discuss anything concerning your fiancé.”
 
Now, where had this come from? Of course the words were true, but Heaven knew that it was mere propriety than anything else. Not the way I ever used to comfort her.
 
“James…”
 
She turned to me, tugged at my sleeve and it would be unreasonably rude not to look at her. I sighed and faced her, saw her eyes widen and rage building up in an instance. Her small fingers gently touched the bruise which adorned my cheekbone.
 
“He did that to you.”
 
It wasn’t a question.
 
“Your silence is answer enough. So he didn’t want to accept the fact that you gave your word to me never to tell anyone about this place.”
 
I closed my eyes, hung my head and pressed my lips together.
 
“James, please. Tell me what happened to your face. Look at me and tell me it was anything else than Will’s jealousy!”
 
What could I do? I would never be able to lie to her…
 
“I’m sorry, Elizabeth…”, I whispered.
 
“Why, James? It wasn’t you who began the fight. I rather think you didn’t do anything though you had every right to defend yourself or arrest him for this attack.”
 
“He worried about his beloved. I couldn’t arrest a man out of his mind, now could I?”
 
She laughed, bitterness nearly overwhelmed her.
 
“Out of his mind, yes! That’s right. He promised to love and protect me. But what he really does is controlling my life! He never left my side, except when he’s working or I retired to my rooms. As soon as he’s back from the smithy he wants to know everything, what I did every minute, every person I met, every word I talked. He never grants me space when I need it. He tries to cage me, James…”
 
Tears were running down her cheeks. I offered my handkerchief and stood quiet. There was nothing I could say or do. It was her decision, her heart given to Turner that led to this path. To this cave where I first found her seven years ago after an altercation with her father.
For me, it didn’t matter that I gave my word of secrecy to a twelve year old girl. My word didn’t depend on the age but on the circumstances. The one and only moment I would ever consider to break it would be if I couldn’t retrieve her on my own in case of acute danger.
 
“Do you remember your words to him on the parapet?”
 
Of course I remembered. I would never forget any word spoken on that fateful day…
 
“Care and devotion. Let me tell you what kind of them he shows. He cares far too much about my personal affairs and the gossip. And he is so devoted to his new position as the governor’s future son-in-law that he is more concerned about the opinion of other people than my well-being!”
 
It was wrong to listen. I should tell her to stop it. But all I could do was taking her hand and gently stroke it.
 
“You shouldn’t share those… Family affairs with me, Elizabeth. Especially not with me…”
 
“I know. But you are my only true friend, James. The only one I trust.”
 
More than surprised I caught her eyes. She didn’t avoid my gaze and I saw all her sorrow, clearly written in these gold-brown orbs. We just sat there and looked at each other for a long time, before she spoke again.
 
“Would you cage me if you’d still be my fiancé, James?”
 
Slowly, very slowly I shook my head.
 
“Neither cage you nor cut your wings. Just correct your heading if necessary. But I’m not your fiancé, Elizabeth. You love Mr. Turner and it is him you want to marry.”
 
Again, she broke into tears and clutched to my hand as if she was drowning.
 
“But… He changed so much! He isn’t the man who stood up against wrongful rules anymore, far from it! He creates new rules every day and he insists on me keeping to them. I don’t want to live that way!”
 
Her voice nearly cracked when she whispered:
 
“Please, James. Help me!”
 
 
 
 
tbc…
 
 
 
 
blackpoetcat
14 July 2007 @ 05:23 pm

 

Title: Take what you can
Author: blackpoetcat
Rating: none
Characters: James Norrington (Jack Sparrow implied)
Pairing: Sparrington
Disclaimer: All Disney's; just borrowed for some piece of word art

Warning: slash implied


 

Take what you can


What rules do you accept?
What is driving you?
What is it you fear?
What is it you want?

Can’t predict you.
Can’t sense your feelings.
Can’t read you.
Can’t stop wanting you.

No rules, you say.
No obligations.
No thoughts about future.
No bloody fear.

You seduced me.
You loved me.
You exhausted me.
You showed me heaven.

Pirates don’t seduce Navy officers.
Pirates don’t love them.
Pirates fight and kill them.
Pirates don’t know where heaven is.

Take my love.
Take my dignity.
Take my pride.
Take my life.

But don’t take my heart without giving yours back…


 

Tags:
 
 
Current Location: at home
 
 
blackpoetcat
26 May 2007 @ 10:18 am

Title: Peace
Author: blackpoetcat
Rating: none

Characters: James Norrington / Elizabeth Swann (implied)
Disclaimer: All Disney's; taken for non-profit-use only

Feedback: Would be dearly appreciated
Warning: AWE-spoilers, death-fic
Summary: James' thought of his feelings.




Peace


 

„It’s a curious thing. There was a time where I would have done anything to see that smile when you think of me.”

 

Oh, I remember exactly saying that to her. And her reaction as well. And my own, when I mocked her and her thrashing course between Turner and Sparrow. Sprayed my sarcasm until I saw her true love for that bloody blacksmith on Isla Cruces.

I remember all my words and deeds.

My treason…

 

I never wanted to hurt or betray her. But I did. And there is nothing, absolutely nothing I can do to erase it.

Just regret and hope for forgiveness. The only hope left.

 

She isn’t meant for me, she never was. My destiny was to step back for Turner and leave them alone. Remain alone, because I never could love someone else.

 

And now I have to stay back again. For her. She needs to live, to be free and with him. I know, this is my last chance to show her my feelings. Show her that I not only care, but love her deeply. That I’ll die for her.

 

She asks me to join her.

I can’t. It’s an impossible thing to accompany her.

Not because of my duty, I failed that anyway the moment I opened the brig’s door for her and her crew. If one can fail a duty that’s corrupted by the way he achieved it in the first place…

 

No, I don’t want to continue like this. And I don’t want to turn pirate again, either. It would be too hard to watch the happy couple. I don’t want to watch them. The pure imagination rips my heart in pieces. Better to stay, back up her escape - and die.

 

I try to persuade her that I’ll follow. She doesn’t believe me. She’s right, but I won’t admit. So I tell her that we were never meant to sail along. That our destinies were just entwined, but never joined. Pretty words. I hate to say them.

But in that moment she makes me the most precious gift I ever got.

I feel her lips, taste her, kiss her back with all my love and passion. She will never know how many nights I dreamed of this, how many sighs escaped my throat all the time since I fell in love with her.

She will never know.

 

One of the Dutchman’s cursed sailors approached me. He refuses to obey my orders, raises the alert instead.

Funny, but my voice, my perfect fitting commanding voice for many years, seems to break. I can’t remember a time this happened.

 

I hear her shouting, hear my name, turn to her. Steps on the deck give the approaching crew away. I shoot the rope she’s clinging on, see her hit the water. She will reach the Empress. She’s safe. Safe to live with him.

 

I turn back to the sailor – and was stopped dead in my track as something hit my stomach. It hurts so bad I stop breathing.

She screams my name, again. And again.

I feel nothing but coldness. My knees give way, I sink to the ground.

 

I can’t see her anymore. Can’t hear her voice. But she is here, with me.

In my heart. My love for her eases the pain.

 

Tentacles moves in front of me. Davy Jones.

Do I fear death?

No, absolutely not. There is only one thing I fear – to continue my lonely existence without her.

 

I grow weaker with every second, can’t speak anymore, can’t tell him to go to hell.

But I have to make clear that I decline his offer, so I thrust my sword into Jones’ body, knowing full well that there is no effect. It doesn’t matter.

 

No deal, no further pain.

 

Just peace.

 

 

 

 
 
Current Location: at home
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Moving Moments
 
 
blackpoetcat
25 May 2007 @ 11:51 am

Title: Gazpacho
Author: blackpoetcat
Rating: PG-15 (slash, language, sex implied)
Pairing: James Norrington / Jack Sparrow
Disclaimer: Not mine, Disney's; commandeered for non-profit-use only

Feedback: Would be nice
Warning: none
Notes: Post-CotBP, complete AU to original storyline
Summary: Little everyday life scene from a very special relationship.

This short fic was born due to a challenge at a German Sparrington-board
Word score was: budgie, cucumber soup, First Mate, corset, slim down; so don't wonder about these contents.




Gazpacho


„What are you doing here?“

 

Jack jumped and tried to hide the nearly empty bowl in his hand. Shit, what the hell was his lover doing in the kitchen in the middle of the night?

 

„I... Uh... See, Jamie...“

 

„You filched my Gazpacho!“, Norrington growled. Damn, he had needed weeks to persuade his cook to concoct something that was not British!

 

Jack gaped at him, mouth open. Gazpacho? That was the name of his uncle’s teeny parrot. Damn the devil, these British seemed to eat anything.

 

„You mean... That’s... Budgie soup?“, he stuttered.

 

James rolled his eyes. Heaven, what thoughts occurred to this crazy pirate?

 

„Nonsense. It’s a Spanish cucumber soup. Don’t tell me, you don’t know it? You, of all people, who canvassed the Seven Seas and always boasts you’ve seen all?!”, James taunted him.

 

“I’ve seen all, savvy?”, Jack protested in a snit, “Just not eaten all…”

 

He pouted. Pffff… Don’t be smug about you knowing more than me one time! It’s rare enough.

 

„If you didn’t eat all you met on your way, then why don’t you fit through the window of my office anymore?”, James digged deeper in a mocking voice.

 

Would have been very daft if my guards caught you while you was pinned. Was a very funny sight how you hung half out of my window with your bottom high, legs fidgeting…

 

James had to compose himself lest he didn’t start to snort with laughter at this memory.

 

„Because I ate too much Tortillas, aye? There’s a new tavern in Tortuga, excellent Spanish style…”

 

„Tortillas? That dry stuff? How can one eat too much of that?“

 

„By moisten it in a good amount of Rum.“ What a stupid question…

 

James shook his head.

 

„I should’ve known. Don’t you know that too much Rum let swell these maize pancakes in your stomach as much as soaked bread?”

 

Jack’s eyes grew like saucers.

 

„No!“

 

“Sure. That’s exactly why you nearly mirrored Gibbs’ stomach.”

 

„Leave my First mate alone! Maybe he should slim down, not me. And I’ll prove that!”

 

Jack stood up and walked towards the door.

 

„Where do you want to go?“

 

„Your office, of course.“

 

„That’s out of question, it’s too dangerous!“

 

„I’m not afraid of your tin soldiers.“

 

„You wouldn’t need to be afraid if you’d be less swelled. But in this condition you’ll never make it through the window.”

 

„Bet on?“

 

„I bet you don’t.“

 

„Okay, what’s to wager?“

 

„The winner may take the liberty of loving the loser all the ways he wishes.”

 

„Without limitation? Until the winner is satisfied?“

 

„Exactly, Captain Sparrow.“

 

„Agreed, Commodore Norrington.“

 

***

 

„Jack?“

 

„Aye, Jamie?“

 

„Untie me, please. I have to report on duty.”

 

„But I’m not finished with you.“

 

„If I don’t show up in time, Gillette and Groves will come to see after me. That’s too dangerous.”

 

„You’re right. But tonight I’ll tie you to the bed again, my dearest Commodre. Until I’m satisfied, savvy?”

 

„You’re never satisfied. And by the way, you shouldn’t have been allowed to claim your prize at all. You cheated.”

 

„No, I didn’t. We never discussed how I have to fit through the window.“

 

„So much about betting with pirates. Remember me to avoid it in the future, will you?“

 

„Certainly not, I enjoy the result far too much. And now hurry to join your boring papers. I’ll wait here for you.“

 

„No, Jack. You’ll bring Elizabeth’s corset back to her. What shall my servants think if they’d ever find that thing here?“

 

„That you have an affair with her and...“

 

The last sentence was squelched by a well-aimed pillow.

 

 
 
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blackpoetcat
23 May 2007 @ 06:12 pm

Title: Because
Author: blackpoetcat
Rating: PG-13 (language)
Pairing: Norribeth
Disclaimer: Not mine, Disney's; commandeered just for fun
Feedback: Hope so...
Warning: none
Notes: Post-DMC, little long-known spoilers of AWE, rather AU
Summary: Admiral James Norrington met pirate Elizabeth Swann under precarious circumstances



Because

 

 

Oh God, he was so tired!

Tired of Davy Jones’ enforced cruel bloodsheds, tired of the paperwork which seemed to grow constantly during his absence, tired of the reports he had to compose after returning from sea.

But most of all, he was tired of one Lord Cutler Beckett and his overbearing demeanor.

 

Admiral James Norrington propped his elbows on his desk and buried his face in his hands. A deep sigh escaped his throat. When would this man stop to bother the Caribbean in general and himself in particular? He knew his duties. He never needed anyone to remind him of them, nobody ever dared to interfere his orders. But there was no time of ease since he returned with the heart seven months ago.

He might as well could’ve remained with Sparrow and the other pirates. If he had stayed aboard the Black Pearl, he’d been free at last and the threat of a dishonorable death by the gallows would make sense at all. Unlike now, where he plodded until exhaustion to uphold the law while that bloody Lord still hesitated to destroy his warrant, just in case he’d conspire against the EITC. Fucking bastard!

 

He rubbed his temples and poured himself a glass of brandy before he browsed flippant through the mass of parchments. Someone knocked and opened the door without waiting for permission and walked quietly towards him. James cursed in silence but didn’t raise his head from his papers, not even when the intruder stopped in front of his desk.

 

“Yes, Mr. Mercer?”

 

“Lord Beckett requires your company in the new gaol wing, Admiral.”

 

“Now?”

 

“Indeed.”

 

Norrington nodded, grabbed his hat and left his office behind Beckett’s so-called secretary.

 

“Who is it?”

 

“I’m not allowed to tell you, Admiral. You have to wait.”

 

James snorted with disgust.

As usual, of course. Like he was a child that shouldn’t know what his parents came up with. Hell, he was an high-ranking officer! He deserved at least some basic respect.

 

When they arrived in the most secure part of the fort’s prison, Beckett turned to him and smiled. James recognized this arrogant smirk and knew in an instant that he’d be not pleased about what he’d learn here.

 

“Ah, Admiral Norrington. Very kind of you to join us. I’m sure you remember our dear guest?”

 

***

 

James stepped nearer to the bars and looked into the cell. In the next moment he felt as if an iron fist pressed his heart together. He fought hard to remain as stiff and composed as always, to hide the terrible shock behind cold eyes and a stern façade. Only his strong will prevented his voice from trembling.

 

“Welcome back to Port Royal, Miss Swann. I suppose you didn’t intend to be saluted this way, did you?”

 

“First and foremost I didn’t intend to speak to you anymore, you treacherous bastard!”

 

Elizabeth fumed in barely suppressed rage, her eyes shot daggers at him.

 

“Well, if you keep on declining my generous offer, you won’t have to speak to the Admiral anymore, Miss Swann. Nor to anyone else, as you will be executed tomorrow morning”, Beckett remarked.

 

She bit her lips and tried to cross her arms before her chest, causing the chain rattle which tied her shackled wrists to the wall.

 

“I’m certain it will be less tantalizing than to endure the aftermath of your so-called generous offer.”

 

Of course. Elizabeth would never surrender nor show any weakness or fear, not even in such a life-threatening situation. James couldn’t help but admire her unbroken spirit.

He looked from her to Beckett.

 

“What offer?”

 

“I provided her a wealthy and respectable future as my wife. It’s that or the gallows for Miss Swann.”

 

Norrington gaped at the smaller man. His thoughts seemed to rush in spinning circles. Why on earth should Beckett want to marry Elizabeth? Not only was she a pirate, her reputation was ruined and she herself probably what society called ‘damaged good’. A very bad match for a Lord in every aspect.

But nevertheless, she was the only child of the Governor. As his son-in-law, Beckett would inherit Swann’s funds as well as his connections and influence among the Peers. Those were things James never cared for when he courted Elizabeth himself, but were worth a marriage for overambitious people like Beckett, who continued his efforts to persuade his prisoner.

 

“Think about once more, Miss Swann. I’m certain you won’t kill your father by watching his beloved daughter hang, now would you?”

 

The Lord’s smile became more cheeky while he remembered Elizabeth of poor Weatherby Swann.

 

“My father will understand that I’d rather die than deliver myself into your greedy clutches, Lord Beckett!”

 

Her chin rose and her arrogance composure matched Beckett‘s in a glimpse. He nodded and turned to leave.

 

“You have time to change your mind until dawn, Miss Swann. When the guards will come to take you to the scaffold, your sole chance to save your life is gone. In case you’ll decide to be reasonable, call the guard on duty.”

 

He caught Norrington’s eyes who seemed rooted on his spot.

 

“Are you coming, Admiral?”

 

“Of course, Mylord.”

 

James stepped a few inches towards his former fiancée’s cell.

 

“Believe me that I’d rather never met you again than witness your death. But I have to perform my duty. Adieu, Elizabeth.”

 

“Fuck your duty, James! I hope you’ll enjoy my execution.”

 

He shook his head before he started to follow his superior.

 

“I thought you’d known me better, Elizabeth. I never enjoyed executions. They are just part of the law I swore to enforce. Good bye.”

 

***

 

Climbing the stairs, James couldn’t resist to ask for information.

 

“How did you apprehend her?”

 

It was Mercer who answered.

 

“She returned to her father two nights ago. One of the Governor’s servants earned the reward we offered months ago for this special case.”

 

James preferred to not comment. He should have known...

 

When the men reached the hallway, they found Governor Swann waiting in front of Norrington’s office. He approached them and shook his folded hands in a beseeching gesture.

 

“Lord Beckett, please release my daughter! You promised to protect her from any harm.”

 

Beckett produced a sad but obvisiously false smile.

 

“My dear Weatherby, I really am sorry about your upcoming loss. But you must understand that our accord was meant in case of her participation in a battle then or her due return after Sparrow’s death. Now it is a fact that she spent nearly eight months aboard several pirate ships, in the company of known criminals. Therefore, she is a pirate.”

 

He looked at Norrington.

 

“And what does the law say, Admiral? What is it that every person deserves who committed piracy?”

 

James cleared his dry throat and clasped his hands behind his back. Then he focused on Swann’s gaze.

 

“A short drop and a sudden stop, with no regard of gender or status. I’m sorry, Governor. There’s nothing I can do.”

 

Swann stared at him in disbelief and visible pain.

 

“But... James... You loved  Elizabeth! How can you do this to the woman you once wanted to marry? How can you do this to me? I thought we are friends!”

 

Norrington nodded and adumbrated a sympathetic smile.

 

“I still am your friend, Governor. But I’m bound by the law. And, as you perhaps understand, though I really loved Elizabeth when I proposed to her, time and circumstances have changed.”

 

He pressed his lips together before he continued, never leaving the older man’s eyes.

 

“I stopped loving her a long time ago. To be honest, I don’t even like her since she turned pirate. I’m sorry to hurt you, sir, but when we were together on the Pearl, I recognized that Elizabeth’s nature is nearly equal to Sparrow’s.”

 

Swann winced back, shaken. Tears ran down his face.

 

“You lump my daughter together with that filthy scum? You? The man I loved like the son I never had? The man I supported for nearly a decade? How dare you...”

 

Norrington straightened his figure.

 

“As I said, I’m sorry, sir. I never meant to hurt you. But I can’t deny the truth. Elizabeth is a pirate by heart and will never change. Neither for your well-being nor anything else.”

 

He signaled to a pair of soldiers passing by.

 

“Marines, show the Governor to his carriage and accompany him home. He’s unwell and needs some rest, see to it.”

 

“Aye, sir.”

 

Weatherby Swann looked one last time into cold green eyes.

 

“I never thought that this day would come, but you forced me to cut our connection. Admiral Norrington, I’d appreciate it if you’d avoid my house and any possible encounters in the future.”

 

James stern face didn’t show any regret or guilt.

 

“As you wish, Governor.”

 

Then the two marines led the older man out of the fort. Beckett smiled and patted James’ shoulder.

 

“Well spoken, Admiral. It seems you’ve adapted to your expected role and position. Perhaps I should crush your warrant.”

 

He started to walk towards the exit, but turned back one more moment.

 

“Of course, not until Miss Swann had either married me or been hung.”

 

Beckett and Mercer finally left the fort. They didn’t hear the snort of disgust what followed them.

 

***

 

Some time after midnight, a shadow scurried through the dungeon. Every few steps the figure paused and looked around. But there were no guards, save from the black clothed man in front of the only occupied cell. The man that just unlocked the door and entered the cell...

The shadow could hear his cold voice.

 

“We both know that you will at last accept my master’s offer, Miss Swann. You’re not the type to sacrifice yourself. So why don’t you spare my time and let me call for Lord Beckett, hm?”

 

“Spare my remaining time and leave me alone!”

 

“I don’t think so. You spent months with pirates, you’re not better than any whore. So why do you care for whom you spread your legs now?”

 

“Because she’d never spread them for a man she doesn’t love!”, a dark voice hissed behind him.

 

Before Mercer could turn or react otherwise, he was knocked out with a hard hit to his head. He fell to the ground and didn’t move anymore.

 

Elizabeth looked from the limp form to the man in civilian clothes before her, surprise and confusion clearly written on her face.

 

“James?! What the hell...”

 

“No time for conversation, Elizabeth. We need to hurry.”

 

Norrington presented a key and unlocked her shackles.

 

“Help me to remove his coat, you’ll need it.”

 

They both stripped the unconscious Mercer of his black coat, then James shackled him with hands behind his back and finally gagged him while Elizabeth slipped into the piece of cloth.

 

“Why didn’t you kill him? He’s an assasin.”

 

“I know. But I never killed people from behind and won’t start tonight. Besides, as I’ll vanish the same night as you, it is quite obvious who’d sprang you free. No need to hinder him confirming my treason.”

 

He locked the cell and grasped Elizabeth’s hand.

 

“Come quick now, we have to catch our ship. It’s only half an hour until the tide’s turning low.”

 

They snuck through the fort, to the lower part of the docks and boarded a small vessel. A sailor with grey hair and beard met them on deck.

 

“Mr. and Mrs. Barclay?”

 

Norrington nodded and put an arm around Elizabeth’s waist.

 

“Yes. I suppose we’ll find our baggage in our cabin?”

 

“Aye. We’ll leave in a few minutes. Best go asleep now.”

 

“That we’ll do, Captain Roberts. Thank you and good night.”

 

Elizabeth just smiled to the captain, then they went below deck.

 

***

 

A moment later, they approached a small but tidy cabin with only one bunk. She cocked an eyebrow and looked at James who nodded towards the small bed.

 

“Don’t worry, I’ll sleep on the floor.”

 

She smirked.

 

“I didn’t worry. If there’s one thing I’m certain about you, it’s that you’re a gentleman.”

 

He tilted his head, a wistful smile appeared on his face.

 

“Sure about that? Despite all my treacherous deeds?”

 

“Yes. You are a gentleman, James. And a pirate...”

 

He laughed out loud at that dry remark. Elizabeth’s eyes went wide in astonishment.

 

“Amazing. A miracle.”

 

He stopped laughing, puzzled.

 

“Miracle?”

 

“I know you since our crossing from England, but this was actually the first time I saw and hear you laughing.”

 

He shrugged.

 

“Well, maybe there wasn’t anything worth it.”

 

“No, you didn’t allow yourself to relax or really enjoy something in the past. You always performed the perfect officer and gentleman, James. You were never just a man.”

 

She fixed his gaze and stepped nearer to him.

 

“In former times you’d been upset if I’d called you a pirate. But you really are one. Especially now, after you committed piracy by springing me from jail. So please tell me, from one pirate to another, why did you rescue me? It irrevocable means the gallows for you.”

 

He sighed and closed his eyes for some seconds. When he opened them again, Elizabeth gasped. She couldn’t remember if she ever saw such amount of emotions in these oceans of green.

 

“The answer is very simple, my dear. I would rather hang myself than condemn you to the noose. Or leave you to Beckett’s mercy in a painful marriage.”

 

He took a deep breath and whispered:

 

“Because I never stopped loving you.”

 

 

 

 
 
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blackpoetcat
14 February 2007 @ 03:55 am

Destiny’s Touch
 

I sat at home
I was alone
My heart cried deeply blue

But suddenly
I seemed to hear
A shy and gently whoop

My mind broke free
Your voice called me
To whisper “I love you”

Since then I feel
Like dancing reel
Cause our hearts fly through

All fret there’ll be
And never see
One lonely - only two

As long I live
I always give
My whole love just to you…

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blackpoetcat
14 February 2007 @ 02:50 am
Welcome to my journal.

I don't think that I will post very much, but nevertheless I have to test if I'm able to work with this.

Hope you'll enjoy whatever I'm going to produce.

Greetings

Blacky

 
 
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